I'm very badly anaemic now and struggling to cope

I hereby declare that last months cycle was the last time I would allow myself to be tipped into anaemia due to excessive Oestrogen and its  detrimental affects on my health.

I've ordered another pot of Progesterone Cream.  This one is supposed to be here in 2 days.

I am so ill at the moment.  I almost collapsed in shops.  You get such funny looks when you are this weak.  

People will be speaking to me and the room will go kind of dark and their voice will sound more and more like an alien.  I usually divert my gaze as I feel myself going out of control.  

Its like there is this shutting down of my senses and all I can do is breath faster.  Last night I was actually panting to get enough oxygen.  

I'm taking liquid iron three times a day.  I'm not getting any worse now, but it will be about 5 days before I get my strength back.

But saying all of that, my general health must actually be pretty good at the present time, because even though I'm having a blood crisis, I don't have headaches or pain at all, like I used to.  Its just this tremendous sudden onset dizziness and feeling that I'm going to pass out.

I now realise I've been writing on here for a while now that I've been feeling like I'm going to pass out. Honestly, sometimes it takes me a long time to realise what's really going on.  

I look utterly ghastly!  My face is just bloodless.  My DH is panic-stricken.  He said he would take me for blood tests this afternoon as I cannot possible drive.

The trouble with National Health blood tests is they take ages to come back and when they do, the threshold for stuff like B12 deficiency, potassium and iron, are so high, that people like me have to virtually go into a coma before people really understand how ill you are.

I don't care, I'm not putting my future in their hands anymore.  I know what normal feels like and this is very very far from it.  

The next person that even suggests my Oestrogen is low is going to get a punched head from me!

I'm in a crisis at the moment and making decisions is really hard.  It like takes me so much longer to think.  I mean I can still think but then putting it all into words, is just more than I can come up with.

Last time I was badly anaemic, all my teeth became loose in my head.  That is NOT a nice feeling.  

My teeth are fine at the present time but the whites of my eyes are simply non-existent.  

When I sink like this, I sink fast.  

Thank you for your good wishes, its OK, I know what's wrong with me and thats the main thing.  Its not knowing that is always the really bad part...